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===== Awakening the Archive - Tape #4, by Shundo David Haye =====

"I always felt his best Zen talks were the ones he gave on Thursday mornings in my home. They were spontaneous, succinct and spoken from a relaxed and contented heart and mind." - Marian Derby

In this talk, given a couple of weeks after the previous one that was also found on the same reel (08/26/65), Suzuki Roshi immediately paraphrases Dogen's famous line from the Genjo Koan, "To study the Buddha Way is to study the self." Like Dogen, he uses a concrete analogy to underline the point: what is the nature of water? How can we know it?
He branches out to include Rinzai, the Chinese founder of the other main Zen school that was practiced in Japan, and his own experiences at Eiheiji, the main training temple in the Soto School that Dogen founded in Japan. He explains how, when you are doing monastic training, you don't think you are doing anything special; whatever activity it was, the monks just did it.

Although we need the teaching to guide us on the path, this way of studying and learning does not involve a particular kind of teaching; practicing in these circumstances gives the practitioner endless opportunities to study the self, and, by harmonizing with the activity, to forget the self - the second line of Dogen's formulations in the Genjo Koan, that Suzuki Roshi quotes later in the talk. At the end, he also paraphrases the next line too ('to forget the self is to be actualized by myriad things'):

"When you forget yourselves, you resume, you will actually take the true activity of the big existence or reality. When we realize this fact, there is no problem whatsoever in this world" (@24:31)

This, he reminds the practitioners of Los Altos, is why we practice and study.

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This tape is one of three existing recordings of Suzuki Roshi talks to the Los Altos group that became part of Zen Mind, Beginner's Mind.

Newly imported in 2020 from the original tape reel, this audio recording was previously lost from the archives, with only the 1960’s transcript surviving.

Transcript updated from audio, SDH 7/21


David Chadwick's notes:

Los Altos ms box transcript exact copy entered onto disc and emailed to DC by GM 06-09-08.
File name: 65-09-09: Study Yourself Zen Mind, Beginner's Mind, p. 76, (Not Verbatim) Los Altos box title: Forgetting Ourselves Changed "is not need" to "is no need" 5-13-2015, dc.; #zmbm, #new-audio, #awakening-the-archive


The purpose of studying Buddhism is not to study Buddhism, but to study ourselves. It is impossible to study ourselves without some teaching. If you want to know what is water, because it is impossible to know what is water, so you want science, scientist wants laboratory, and in various ways they may study what is water. So it is possible to know what kind of element water has, or when wind come what kind of form water takes, and what is the nature of water, it always come -- comes down, but we -- it is impossible to know water itself. It is same thing with ourselves. It is impossible to know what is "I". That is why we have teaching. By teaching we will understand what is ourselves. But teaching is not ourselves; it is some explanation of ourselves. So if you attach to the teaching, or to the teacher, that is big mistake. The purpose of -- to study teaching is to know yourselves; through teaching you should know yourselves. So that is why we do not attach to even teaching or teacher. The moment you meet a teacher, you should leave the teacher and you should be independent. So that you can be independent, you want teacher. So you study yourselves. You have teacher for yourselves, not for the teacher.

In Rinzai way -- Rinzai analyzed how to teach his disciples in four ways. Sometimes he talks about disciple himself; sometimes he talks about teaching itself; sometimes he gives interpretation of he himself and teaching, both teaching and he himself; sometimes he does not give any instruction about the students or teaching, because even though he does not speak about anything, student is student. Strictly speaking there is no need to teach him because he himself is Buddha, whether or not he is aware of it. Even though he is aware of his true nature, if he attaches to the awareness of his nature, that is already wrong. When he is not aware of it, he has everything, but when he becomes aware of it, he thinks what he is aware of is he himself. So that’s big mistake.

So sometimes teaching -- without teaching, when we do not hear anything and just sit, you have everything. And teaching or -- will not sufficient -- or awareness of yourself is not sufficient. So the purpose of practice in this place is to study ourselves. To be independent, we study. But you want teacher, because it is impossible to study you yourself; by some means you have to study. But you should not make mistake. You should not take what you have learned here for yourselves. It is a part of your activity, everyday activity. The study you make here is a part of your everyday life, your incessant activity - a part of your incessant activity. In this sense there is no difference between the practice here, and the everyday activity you will have in everyday life. So to find out the meaning of your life here is to find out the meaning of your everyday activity. To know -- to be aware of the meaning of your life, you practice zazen here.

Of course, when I was at Eiheiji, everyone is just doing what they should -- what he should do. That’s all. It is same thing as you have breakfast in the morning. That’s all what we do in Eiheiji monastery. When we have to sit, we sit. That’s all. When we should bow to Buddha, we bow to Buddha. That’s all. And when we are practicing there, we do not feel anything special. We do not feel even that we are practicing monastic -- we are having monastic life. For us monastic life is usual life, and people who come from city is unusual people [laughs]. We think -- we felt in that way “Oh, some unusual people came” [laughs]. We thought we are quite usual. But once you go out from Eiheiji and come back to Eiheiji, and hear the various sounds of practice, or hear them reciting sutra, you will feel deep feeling. Some tears flowing out of your mouth and eyes and nose [laughter]. It is the people, you know, who is outside of the monastery [laughs] who feels something about it. Those who are practicing actually do not feel anything [laughs].

I think that is true for everything. When we hear the sound of the pine tree in windy day perhaps the pine tree -- or wind is just blowing, and pine tree is just standing in the wind. That is all what they are doing. But people who listen to it will make some poem, or will feel something unusual. That is, I think, the way everything goes. So, to hear, to know what is -- to feel something about Buddhism is not the main point. Whether Buddhism is good or bad is out of question. We don’t mind whatever it is [laughs]. Buddhism is not good or bad. We are doing what we should do. That is Buddhism.

So it is the same thing as you take breakfast, and go to bed. This is Buddhism. Of course some encouragement is necessary for us, but that encouragement is just encouragement. It is not the purpose, the true aim of the practice -- true purpose of practice. That is just medicine. When we become discouraged, we want some medicine. So when we are in good spirit, you do not want any medicine. You should not take medicine for the true -- for the food. Sometimes medicine is necessary, but medicine should not be our food.

So Rinzai’s four ways of practice. The perfect one is not to give any student any interpretation of himself, or giving any stimulation to himself. If he himself is my body, the teaching is maybe our clothes. Sometimes we talk about our clothing. Sometimes we talk about our body. But body or clothing is not actually we ourselves. We ourselves are big activity. We are just taking a smallest particle of big activity, that’s all. So there will not be any need to talk about we ourselves. When we realize -- so that we may realize this fact, there is teaching we should talk about ourselves, but actually there is no need to talk about. We ourselves are already talking about the big existence, including ourselves. So to talk about ourselves is to correct our misunderstanding, that’s all, because we attach to the temporal form or color of the big activity. So, it is necessary to talk about what is our body, what is our activity, so that you may not make any mistake about it. So to talk about something is to forget about yourselves.

So, Dogen Zenji says, "To study Buddhism is to study ourselves. To study ourselves is to forget ourselves" [laughs]. When you forget temporal expression of big, true nature is why it is necessary to talk about, or else you will think this is it. But this is not it [laughs]. This is it, but this is not it [laughs]. For a while this is it, for the smallest particle of time it is it [laughs]. It is not always so. It is not it. So that you will realize this fact, you have teacher, you have teaching, it is necessary to study Buddhism. But the purpose of studying Buddhism is to study ourselves, and forget ourselves. When you forget yourselves, you resume, you will actually take the true activity of the big existence or reality. When we realize this fact, there is no problem whatsoever in this world. And you can enjoy your life without having any trouble or difficulties. This is how we study Buddhism, and the purpose of this meeting or practice is to be aware of this fact. [Whispers] Thank you very much.